Saying Goodbye To Peter Pan

Hello beautiful people of the galactic interweb! (I wanted to make it sound fancy)

Haha well I'm here to vent and talk about my life...nothing new.

Soooo i have 2 hours and 28 mins left as a teenager :((((((( (probably less after i post it) (2hr 7mins now)

And in preparation for this moment i have started a new tradition with myself (feel free to try it out). You take how ever old you are and write out a list of cool, important, or things you were proud of in that number. And since i am saying adieu to my life as a teenager i wrote down 20 things i did this year. (I'm not gonna share them though)

But as a side note to my impending doom of aging.....SOMEONE STOLE MY FREAKING HAT! It was the first hat i ever bought, as well as the first thing i ever bought online, as well as the first beanie i ever owned. (Oh, the memories) I have been going to this college for many years, and have left important items lying around, and to know now that someone would take something from me is offensive and hurtful. But hey, now i know that society is still as corrupt and untrustworthy as it has always been.

I feel like i should do something crazy and wild as my last moments of my teenage life. But lets be real i am a grandpa at heart and am getting more sleepy by the second lol I'll probably eat some dinner and go to bed only to find my thoughts keeping me awake.

I am going to be an adult...gross. As a child i couldn't dream of anything better and now i just want it to be the opposite, its all down hill from here. Next thing you know ill be 40...(no offense to people 40 or older)

Where is Peter pan and the lost boys when i need them!

I hope i don't become to much of a grumpy and stuffy adult!

Peace and love yall,

The soon to be adult oni. (Why did that rhyme haha)

What I Say Goes In One Ear And Out The Other

Hello beautiful people of the interweb!

It is 6:06am which is normally when i wake up, but about 20 mins ago my mom called me so i couldn't enjoy those last precious moments of sleep, so now i am awake...

Given that I'm not a "morning person" nor a "people person", while lying in bed for those last 20 mins i began thinking of all the things i dislike that happen to me.

So without further ado here it is.

1. I dislike being woken up before my alarm goes off. Once I'm up, I'm up unfortunately:(((
2. I dislike being woken up for stupid things that could of waited til later in the day.
3. I dislike the fact that everything i say people don't pay attention to. (Since this is a big one, here are some examples!)

My major is fashion marketing management, but EVERY TIME i go and say fashion marketing, the people stop listening after fashion. And all i get is them interrupting me halfway through me saying the title of my major to hear them say "oh, so you're in fashion DESIGN". (In that moment my side eye glance is SO strong!!) I have so many family members and friends asking me when I'm going to make them a garment. And i honestly don't think they understand how extremely hard designing and making clothing is. (Props to all the amazing designers out there!!) WHICH IS WHY I'M NOT IN DESIGN!

Another example is that i am trying to design this garment for a fashion show (lord help me lol) and i told my mom about it, but all she heard was "fashion show". And since i model in the ones here, she's like "oh, the show you're modeling in", but the thing is i put up pictures of my pattern pieces saying how I'm "playing designer for the next two weeks". And i am still met with stupid questions, because of them tuning out what i say!!

And this second example is basically what always happens anytime i mention a fashion show, whether I'm volunteering, being someone's assistant or dressing models, i am always asked if I'm modeling in it...

I feel like if people paid more attention to what I'm actually saying instead of trying to guess what I'm saying then maybe, i wouldn't be met with dumb questions and confusion. There are more things that i dislike, but i gotta go get in the shower, cause i gotta make an early morning donut run! Lol

Peace and love y'all, and please pay attention to one another!

Oni.

Biting Off More Than I Can Chew

So i might of bitten off more than i can chew.

Sadly to say i am feeling stressed and constantly on edge, but i know that if i complete all my tasks it'll pay off in the end.

To give you a glimpse of my current struggle, here's some things i have to get done in list format.

-Ironically I'm going to a presentation that's talking about managing work, school and stress. (Waiting for the bus to go as i type)
-I'm in fashion retail, but i volunteered to design a garment for this show that's due in TWO WEEKS. Ps. I just got my models measurements yesterday... (thankfully sewing is not required, because everything is made from upsycled material ie. Garbage bags, etc)
-I'm trying to take more classes a quarter so i can graduate faster.
-I'm skipping classes to due film work. (i normally never miss class, but this will make my resume pop!)
-Trying to get a paid internship to help me go abroad.
-Trying to work on going abroad.
-I am joining more clubs and running for more officer positions.

This is just to list a few!

Wish me luck y'all, cause lord knows i need it!

Peace and love,

Oni.

I Became BFF's With Kendall Jenner & Fashion Week

Hello beautiful virtual world,

I am back yet again to write down my thoughts while they are still fresh in my mind.

Well i have been volunteering for fashion week again this year and the week is slowly coming to a close.

But before i go on about fashion week, i need to let the world know (not because I'm proud or not proud, just because it happened) that i had a dream with Kendall Jenner in it. And i honestly don't watch their show or follow up on their lives. (No hatred or flattery, i just think they are attractive people, simple enough) But i honestly had to Google their faces to figure out which one was in my dream. And it happened to be miss Kendall, who is trying to make a name for herself in the modeling industry now. Good for her! But that's all for my jenner experience.

Speaking of the modeling industry. I got to model today for my designer and i also get to model on Saturday for her again, which is fun. (No i don't consider myself a model, nor am i trying to become a model. I simply like doing it for fun, and only for my designer)

But to shine a dark light onto this years fashion week, IT IS ABSOLUTELY UNORGANIZED. I'm not sure whats going on but all the events and fashion shows seem unorganized and chaotic. Not in the "we are at a fashion show" type of chaos, but more "we didn't plan and we don't know what we are doing or what needs to be done" sort of chaos.

But who knows maybe it could turn out better in the rest of the week? I'm hoping so! Fingers crossed for a greater fashion week this week! (If not i might not come back)

Well that's all for now lovies! Maybe ill post some pictures? Or do a more in-depth blog about fashion week? :)

Who knows.

Peace and love yall,

Oni.

(Please read this blog while listening to really chill music.) (My suggestion is Sooky Black and hozier (they are my addiction right now)) Goodbye for now.

How To Have Confidence

Hello beautiful people of the internet!

I am back yet again. Feeling inspired to write to you all. I don't think this blog will have a "theme" so to speak. Its more of me just writing down what I'm thinking/ feeling.

Well, i think it safe to say that the world is always searching for perfection. Myself included. I think it's easier for people to want to achieve perfection because of social media. We all take perfect selfies, and photos of our lives when its most interesting. And because of this, that's all we see. The perfect parts. Not the depressing moments, the boring moments, the painful moments, etc.

The idea and image of perfection is bounced around from one celebrities face to another. Its hard to be average or feel like you're average in today's world.

And its easier to say (or type) F' PERFECTION! Than it is to no longer want to achieve it.

I guess for me and possibly other people in the world, it's easier to look at your life objectively and see all the great things you have or have achieved.

You no longer have to wait for thanksgiving to be thankful. Be thankful everyday, even for the little things.

Find that song or outfit that makes you feel beautiful or handsome or strong, etc. And look around and name everything that you love. Either about today, or an event from your life. It could be something small or a long list of things.

Feel confident and feel beautiful because there is only ONE you on this planet!

I read something online that went something like; you spend an infinite number of years not being born and an infinite more being dead so enjoy life.

Peace and love yall, enjoy your life.

Oni.

Meeting Misterwives & Making Mistakes

Hello lovies,

Well i have some pretty awesome news! Today i got to check off some things on my bucket list! One thing that i always wanted to do was go to a live concert.

Well back home i went to an African drum thing in a park...so if that counts lol

But i got to see Misterwives perform LIVE! (Sept, 13 2014 so i can remember this forever lol) And let me just let you know they were amazing!

But to my own stupidity i missed out on an amazing opportunity! Let me just warn you, its pretty dumb...

Well i lost my new glasses that transition into sunglasses and because of this i have to carry my glasses while wearing my sunglasses. And I'm sure you're thinking, "whats the problem with that?" Well my dear internet friends, it means i cant see ANYTHING!

And because of this one problem i let a huge opportunity pass by me. Literally.

Mandy lee from Misterwives walked RIGHT past me. But since i can't see and have had so many horrible experiences of mistaking people for other people, i just thought she was a random girl.

Fortunately, i complimented her on her absolutely adorable outfit. And like 10 minutes later i realized WHO i just complimented!

And GET THIS. I tweeted about it and she favorited it! Which is another thing on my bucket list. (To get recognition from someone important/ influential/ who i look up to/ someone famous)

So i can happily check off more and more items and accomplishments on my bucket list while I'm in college!

Welp, that's all i gots for yall beautiful people, until next time!

Random plugin: GO LISTEN TO MISTERWIVES THEY'RE AMAZING!

Peace and love,

Oni.

My Apartment Is Getting A Facelift!

Hello beautiful people of the internet!

I am in class eating my morning oatmeal (with raisins) of course, and i thought to myself, "self...i should blog". So heres i be!

Well, my apartment is getting a facelift and make over as i arrange and rearrange EVERYTHING 😒. (yes the emoji was necessary lol)

I just wanted to say that i am proud of how cool its looking! Apartment tour? Possibly, don't hold your breath though haha

I have all my art hanging up that i made in elementary, middle and high school. And i honestly think i might start painting and stuff again?

Also, Edward is finally here from back home!! He keeps falling over though, but i pick him back up as i should hahah (you'll meet him sometime?)

Well that's all i got for now cause i really want this oatmeal lol

Peace and love yall!

Oni.