So I'm currently living out of a suitcase five out of seven days a week and I work two jobs and juggle school and honestly I feel like my life is falling apart. My grades are dropping and I only have two more months left in school I don't know how much more I can take. Also my heart problems seem to be recurring again. Chest pains and a clicking noise aren't normally supposed to happen I don't think. But anyway I HAVE to find a way to get the reins back on my life before its to late. Wish me luck!
Peace and love,
Oni.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
controversy
I don't make many posts online because I bought a journal, but when ever I can't find it I will post my thoughts on here. What ever they may be. So I apologize now for any controversy.
Heated blankets are really hot, time to turn mine down...
peace and love,
Oni.
Heated blankets are really hot, time to turn mine down...
peace and love,
Oni.
We make the famous rich, but our pockets are crying
So this post is just a mixture of things that I have come to realize, or have been realizing but I decided not to acknowledge them.
We are all surrounded by lies. Constantly, every single day we wake up and are faced with the horrifying truth that there are lies everywhere we turn. I do not mean to be offensive towards anyone, but I just need my thoughts to be put out there.
For me, when I see myself and look at the world around me it is honestly sad and pathetic. It's hard for me to be "myself" because "myself" isn't accepted as whats "normal" or "beautiful". When actually the "beauty" we see in our celebrities is truly false. They are people, just like you and I and we continue to place them on a high pedestal. And honestly I feel sorry for the people with their names in the spot light, because they have to be "perfect" ALL THE TIME. And truthfully if you think about the fact that they have to go through full on make up and hair every time you leave to go anywhere, and make sure that you look "red carpet ready" is sad.
- I read an article in a magazine (I am not quoting) saying what was Britney spears and her kids thinking when they wore sweat pants to take the dog to the vet. <- if nothing in that sentence bothers you then in my opinion your to materialistic. Who really gives a rats ass, shes going to the vet for goodness sakes not the academy awards. It honestly pathetic that that's what is FRONT PAGE NEWS in magazines when there are possibly more important things happening.
And whats even worse is that people, girls and boys; men and women all around the world are sucked into the false realities of that's what they should be like.
We constantly want to pick the brains of the people we idol, and see what a day in their shoes is really like. We want to be them, lets be honest. We want their cars, and their money and their fame and to have millions of people looking up to you. When actually being a celebrity and loved is probably one of the hardest jobs anyone can take. You actually have to be able to complete what ever talent or task you're good at, you have be "in shape" aka far to skinny to function. You have to be a role model to millions of people who all think differently and have different opinions. There will be people out there who will love you to bits, hate you beyond belief, fan girl you, stalk you and lots of other crazy things. What people don't realize is that WE GIVE THEM POWER, WE GIVE THEM MONEY, WE MAKE THEM FAMOUS. If it wasn't for us spending our rent checks on their movie premieres, CD's, concerts, and television shows and a million other forms of propaganda: they would be just like us. Their wealth and entire existence depends entirely on us and whether or not we choose to love them, or hate them or love to hate them they wouldn't be that "famous celebrity" if it wasn't for us.
PS. This goes for people that we make into celebrities like famous youtubers, bloggers, instagramers, etc. They have it hard just as much as the more well known celebrities do.
Well I'm gonna stop for now because I hate writing long articles. Sorry for any grammatical errors, and such.
Peace and love,
Oni.
We are all surrounded by lies. Constantly, every single day we wake up and are faced with the horrifying truth that there are lies everywhere we turn. I do not mean to be offensive towards anyone, but I just need my thoughts to be put out there.
For me, when I see myself and look at the world around me it is honestly sad and pathetic. It's hard for me to be "myself" because "myself" isn't accepted as whats "normal" or "beautiful". When actually the "beauty" we see in our celebrities is truly false. They are people, just like you and I and we continue to place them on a high pedestal. And honestly I feel sorry for the people with their names in the spot light, because they have to be "perfect" ALL THE TIME. And truthfully if you think about the fact that they have to go through full on make up and hair every time you leave to go anywhere, and make sure that you look "red carpet ready" is sad.
- I read an article in a magazine (I am not quoting) saying what was Britney spears and her kids thinking when they wore sweat pants to take the dog to the vet. <- if nothing in that sentence bothers you then in my opinion your to materialistic. Who really gives a rats ass, shes going to the vet for goodness sakes not the academy awards. It honestly pathetic that that's what is FRONT PAGE NEWS in magazines when there are possibly more important things happening.
And whats even worse is that people, girls and boys; men and women all around the world are sucked into the false realities of that's what they should be like.
We constantly want to pick the brains of the people we idol, and see what a day in their shoes is really like. We want to be them, lets be honest. We want their cars, and their money and their fame and to have millions of people looking up to you. When actually being a celebrity and loved is probably one of the hardest jobs anyone can take. You actually have to be able to complete what ever talent or task you're good at, you have be "in shape" aka far to skinny to function. You have to be a role model to millions of people who all think differently and have different opinions. There will be people out there who will love you to bits, hate you beyond belief, fan girl you, stalk you and lots of other crazy things. What people don't realize is that WE GIVE THEM POWER, WE GIVE THEM MONEY, WE MAKE THEM FAMOUS. If it wasn't for us spending our rent checks on their movie premieres, CD's, concerts, and television shows and a million other forms of propaganda: they would be just like us. Their wealth and entire existence depends entirely on us and whether or not we choose to love them, or hate them or love to hate them they wouldn't be that "famous celebrity" if it wasn't for us.
PS. This goes for people that we make into celebrities like famous youtubers, bloggers, instagramers, etc. They have it hard just as much as the more well known celebrities do.
Well I'm gonna stop for now because I hate writing long articles. Sorry for any grammatical errors, and such.
Peace and love,
Oni.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
life.
Hello,
I finally realized what my problem is...well before I get in to that whole spiel. I got out early today and am on my laptop blasting my all time new favorite song for now; Always and Forever by Marques Houston.
And I decided that I want to start dancing again so I am trying to learn some choreography online, which is really fun and very challenging. But I love it! Also, I kinda came to the conclusion that I wanted to become flexible again, which will definitely help out with dancing. So wish me luck!! Although, I probably will not become some "All Star" dancer somewhere on TV, I really enjoy watching it and doing it so its about time I picked it back up again.
Well on to explaining some of my many realizations about myself...If you have not noticed I am a lazy bum. But although I really do love blogging, vlogging, and fashion I just don't have the time or effort to continue. Although, I'm not saying that I want to have some gigantic and famous blog or anything I just don't have any motivation lately or followers. :( And I understand the only way to get followers and such is to continue blogging but sometimes I feel like I am preaching to the wind out here haha. And sadly enough to say every time I go to make a new vlog video I can't hear myself nor do I know how to do a voice over or edit correctly. (I speak relatively quiet on a daily basis so for me I am like yelling at my computer every time I make a video and I don't know if I am just losing my hearing or what cause I can't hear myself). So I am not really sure if I am going to be making any more vlogs unless done on my phone and uploaded somehow or when my brother gives me his mac so I can download Imovie. But I probably won't be getting that computer until I head off to college. :(
Well maybe I'll just have to keep going and eventually something will happen. And another thing to yell at myself for is that I barely ever post OOTD's which I need to get on, cause I have outfits lying around my room waiting for me to snap pictures of them.
PS. I probably won't be taking photos outside anytime soon, its unrealistically cold (9 degrees this morning) where I am and I am not going to get sick and end up missing school or work anytime soon, so hopefully ill get those pictures updated and get a move on with my life. waahh!
peace and love,
Oni.
I finally realized what my problem is...well before I get in to that whole spiel. I got out early today and am on my laptop blasting my all time new favorite song for now; Always and Forever by Marques Houston.
And I decided that I want to start dancing again so I am trying to learn some choreography online, which is really fun and very challenging. But I love it! Also, I kinda came to the conclusion that I wanted to become flexible again, which will definitely help out with dancing. So wish me luck!! Although, I probably will not become some "All Star" dancer somewhere on TV, I really enjoy watching it and doing it so its about time I picked it back up again.
Well on to explaining some of my many realizations about myself...If you have not noticed I am a lazy bum. But although I really do love blogging, vlogging, and fashion I just don't have the time or effort to continue. Although, I'm not saying that I want to have some gigantic and famous blog or anything I just don't have any motivation lately or followers. :( And I understand the only way to get followers and such is to continue blogging but sometimes I feel like I am preaching to the wind out here haha. And sadly enough to say every time I go to make a new vlog video I can't hear myself nor do I know how to do a voice over or edit correctly. (I speak relatively quiet on a daily basis so for me I am like yelling at my computer every time I make a video and I don't know if I am just losing my hearing or what cause I can't hear myself). So I am not really sure if I am going to be making any more vlogs unless done on my phone and uploaded somehow or when my brother gives me his mac so I can download Imovie. But I probably won't be getting that computer until I head off to college. :(
Well maybe I'll just have to keep going and eventually something will happen. And another thing to yell at myself for is that I barely ever post OOTD's which I need to get on, cause I have outfits lying around my room waiting for me to snap pictures of them.
PS. I probably won't be taking photos outside anytime soon, its unrealistically cold (9 degrees this morning) where I am and I am not going to get sick and end up missing school or work anytime soon, so hopefully ill get those pictures updated and get a move on with my life. waahh!
peace and love,
Oni.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
more updates and giveaways?
Hello, hello and again with my theme of keeping things short this will be as well. I am here to tell you that everything is updated, from my blogs, to lookbooks, to vlogs etc. I am highly proud of myself right now :)
Well my schedule is busy with finals happening and everything this week so I probably won't be posting a lot for this week. But hopefully when it is over I can get back on track (or at least make a track that is, since I have no exact date of which I update everything. I have to get on that!) Well nothing really else is going on that I have time to type about for now.
But thank you even if you don't subscribe, thank you for just dropping by and checking out my things. I appreciate it. Maybe if this thing picks up I can do give aways and contests and fun things like that!! :)
Peace and love,
Oni.
Well my schedule is busy with finals happening and everything this week so I probably won't be posting a lot for this week. But hopefully when it is over I can get back on track (or at least make a track that is, since I have no exact date of which I update everything. I have to get on that!) Well nothing really else is going on that I have time to type about for now.
But thank you even if you don't subscribe, thank you for just dropping by and checking out my things. I appreciate it. Maybe if this thing picks up I can do give aways and contests and fun things like that!! :)
Peace and love,
Oni.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I survived!
So thankfully I survived the night with no bodily harm done to myself or others. Unfortunately the smell of restroom, pizza and feet still lingers :(
But thankfully now I get to indulge in some yummy Chinese food. Which is well deserved :)
Peace and love y'all
Oni.
Kill me now.
So kill me now blog readers as I explain to you my horrifying situation.
Today is my one Saturday off in a very, VERY long time. And so my aunt asked me if I wanted to go with her to my little cousins 7th bowling birthday party. And so me being the kind hearted person that I am decided to say yes....
I regret to inform you all that this was probably the worst idea to come. Our table is right next to the mens bathroom, I can hardly hear myself think over the screaming children, crashing pins and my thoughts of how to escape.
But without a car or money for a taxi (i doubt they take credit cards) I am forced to stay and conversate with people I have never meet that are supposedly related to me. Fun.
I'll keep you guys posted.
Peace and love,
Oni.
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