Saying Goodbye To Peter Pan

Hello beautiful people of the galactic interweb! (I wanted to make it sound fancy)

Haha well I'm here to vent and talk about my life...nothing new.

Soooo i have 2 hours and 28 mins left as a teenager :((((((( (probably less after i post it) (2hr 7mins now)

And in preparation for this moment i have started a new tradition with myself (feel free to try it out). You take how ever old you are and write out a list of cool, important, or things you were proud of in that number. And since i am saying adieu to my life as a teenager i wrote down 20 things i did this year. (I'm not gonna share them though)

But as a side note to my impending doom of aging.....SOMEONE STOLE MY FREAKING HAT! It was the first hat i ever bought, as well as the first thing i ever bought online, as well as the first beanie i ever owned. (Oh, the memories) I have been going to this college for many years, and have left important items lying around, and to know now that someone would take something from me is offensive and hurtful. But hey, now i know that society is still as corrupt and untrustworthy as it has always been.

I feel like i should do something crazy and wild as my last moments of my teenage life. But lets be real i am a grandpa at heart and am getting more sleepy by the second lol I'll probably eat some dinner and go to bed only to find my thoughts keeping me awake.

I am going to be an adult...gross. As a child i couldn't dream of anything better and now i just want it to be the opposite, its all down hill from here. Next thing you know ill be 40...(no offense to people 40 or older)

Where is Peter pan and the lost boys when i need them!

I hope i don't become to much of a grumpy and stuffy adult!

Peace and love yall,

The soon to be adult oni. (Why did that rhyme haha)

What I Say Goes In One Ear And Out The Other

Hello beautiful people of the interweb!

It is 6:06am which is normally when i wake up, but about 20 mins ago my mom called me so i couldn't enjoy those last precious moments of sleep, so now i am awake...

Given that I'm not a "morning person" nor a "people person", while lying in bed for those last 20 mins i began thinking of all the things i dislike that happen to me.

So without further ado here it is.

1. I dislike being woken up before my alarm goes off. Once I'm up, I'm up unfortunately:(((
2. I dislike being woken up for stupid things that could of waited til later in the day.
3. I dislike the fact that everything i say people don't pay attention to. (Since this is a big one, here are some examples!)

My major is fashion marketing management, but EVERY TIME i go and say fashion marketing, the people stop listening after fashion. And all i get is them interrupting me halfway through me saying the title of my major to hear them say "oh, so you're in fashion DESIGN". (In that moment my side eye glance is SO strong!!) I have so many family members and friends asking me when I'm going to make them a garment. And i honestly don't think they understand how extremely hard designing and making clothing is. (Props to all the amazing designers out there!!) WHICH IS WHY I'M NOT IN DESIGN!

Another example is that i am trying to design this garment for a fashion show (lord help me lol) and i told my mom about it, but all she heard was "fashion show". And since i model in the ones here, she's like "oh, the show you're modeling in", but the thing is i put up pictures of my pattern pieces saying how I'm "playing designer for the next two weeks". And i am still met with stupid questions, because of them tuning out what i say!!

And this second example is basically what always happens anytime i mention a fashion show, whether I'm volunteering, being someone's assistant or dressing models, i am always asked if I'm modeling in it...

I feel like if people paid more attention to what I'm actually saying instead of trying to guess what I'm saying then maybe, i wouldn't be met with dumb questions and confusion. There are more things that i dislike, but i gotta go get in the shower, cause i gotta make an early morning donut run! Lol

Peace and love y'all, and please pay attention to one another!

Oni.

Biting Off More Than I Can Chew

So i might of bitten off more than i can chew.

Sadly to say i am feeling stressed and constantly on edge, but i know that if i complete all my tasks it'll pay off in the end.

To give you a glimpse of my current struggle, here's some things i have to get done in list format.

-Ironically I'm going to a presentation that's talking about managing work, school and stress. (Waiting for the bus to go as i type)
-I'm in fashion retail, but i volunteered to design a garment for this show that's due in TWO WEEKS. Ps. I just got my models measurements yesterday... (thankfully sewing is not required, because everything is made from upsycled material ie. Garbage bags, etc)
-I'm trying to take more classes a quarter so i can graduate faster.
-I'm skipping classes to due film work. (i normally never miss class, but this will make my resume pop!)
-Trying to get a paid internship to help me go abroad.
-Trying to work on going abroad.
-I am joining more clubs and running for more officer positions.

This is just to list a few!

Wish me luck y'all, cause lord knows i need it!

Peace and love,

Oni.

I Became BFF's With Kendall Jenner & Fashion Week

Hello beautiful virtual world,

I am back yet again to write down my thoughts while they are still fresh in my mind.

Well i have been volunteering for fashion week again this year and the week is slowly coming to a close.

But before i go on about fashion week, i need to let the world know (not because I'm proud or not proud, just because it happened) that i had a dream with Kendall Jenner in it. And i honestly don't watch their show or follow up on their lives. (No hatred or flattery, i just think they are attractive people, simple enough) But i honestly had to Google their faces to figure out which one was in my dream. And it happened to be miss Kendall, who is trying to make a name for herself in the modeling industry now. Good for her! But that's all for my jenner experience.

Speaking of the modeling industry. I got to model today for my designer and i also get to model on Saturday for her again, which is fun. (No i don't consider myself a model, nor am i trying to become a model. I simply like doing it for fun, and only for my designer)

But to shine a dark light onto this years fashion week, IT IS ABSOLUTELY UNORGANIZED. I'm not sure whats going on but all the events and fashion shows seem unorganized and chaotic. Not in the "we are at a fashion show" type of chaos, but more "we didn't plan and we don't know what we are doing or what needs to be done" sort of chaos.

But who knows maybe it could turn out better in the rest of the week? I'm hoping so! Fingers crossed for a greater fashion week this week! (If not i might not come back)

Well that's all for now lovies! Maybe ill post some pictures? Or do a more in-depth blog about fashion week? :)

Who knows.

Peace and love yall,

Oni.

(Please read this blog while listening to really chill music.) (My suggestion is Sooky Black and hozier (they are my addiction right now)) Goodbye for now.

How To Have Confidence

Hello beautiful people of the internet!

I am back yet again. Feeling inspired to write to you all. I don't think this blog will have a "theme" so to speak. Its more of me just writing down what I'm thinking/ feeling.

Well, i think it safe to say that the world is always searching for perfection. Myself included. I think it's easier for people to want to achieve perfection because of social media. We all take perfect selfies, and photos of our lives when its most interesting. And because of this, that's all we see. The perfect parts. Not the depressing moments, the boring moments, the painful moments, etc.

The idea and image of perfection is bounced around from one celebrities face to another. Its hard to be average or feel like you're average in today's world.

And its easier to say (or type) F' PERFECTION! Than it is to no longer want to achieve it.

I guess for me and possibly other people in the world, it's easier to look at your life objectively and see all the great things you have or have achieved.

You no longer have to wait for thanksgiving to be thankful. Be thankful everyday, even for the little things.

Find that song or outfit that makes you feel beautiful or handsome or strong, etc. And look around and name everything that you love. Either about today, or an event from your life. It could be something small or a long list of things.

Feel confident and feel beautiful because there is only ONE you on this planet!

I read something online that went something like; you spend an infinite number of years not being born and an infinite more being dead so enjoy life.

Peace and love yall, enjoy your life.

Oni.

Meeting Misterwives & Making Mistakes

Hello lovies,

Well i have some pretty awesome news! Today i got to check off some things on my bucket list! One thing that i always wanted to do was go to a live concert.

Well back home i went to an African drum thing in a park...so if that counts lol

But i got to see Misterwives perform LIVE! (Sept, 13 2014 so i can remember this forever lol) And let me just let you know they were amazing!

But to my own stupidity i missed out on an amazing opportunity! Let me just warn you, its pretty dumb...

Well i lost my new glasses that transition into sunglasses and because of this i have to carry my glasses while wearing my sunglasses. And I'm sure you're thinking, "whats the problem with that?" Well my dear internet friends, it means i cant see ANYTHING!

And because of this one problem i let a huge opportunity pass by me. Literally.

Mandy lee from Misterwives walked RIGHT past me. But since i can't see and have had so many horrible experiences of mistaking people for other people, i just thought she was a random girl.

Fortunately, i complimented her on her absolutely adorable outfit. And like 10 minutes later i realized WHO i just complimented!

And GET THIS. I tweeted about it and she favorited it! Which is another thing on my bucket list. (To get recognition from someone important/ influential/ who i look up to/ someone famous)

So i can happily check off more and more items and accomplishments on my bucket list while I'm in college!

Welp, that's all i gots for yall beautiful people, until next time!

Random plugin: GO LISTEN TO MISTERWIVES THEY'RE AMAZING!

Peace and love,

Oni.

My Apartment Is Getting A Facelift!

Hello beautiful people of the internet!

I am in class eating my morning oatmeal (with raisins) of course, and i thought to myself, "self...i should blog". So heres i be!

Well, my apartment is getting a facelift and make over as i arrange and rearrange EVERYTHING 😒. (yes the emoji was necessary lol)

I just wanted to say that i am proud of how cool its looking! Apartment tour? Possibly, don't hold your breath though haha

I have all my art hanging up that i made in elementary, middle and high school. And i honestly think i might start painting and stuff again?

Also, Edward is finally here from back home!! He keeps falling over though, but i pick him back up as i should hahah (you'll meet him sometime?)

Well that's all i got for now cause i really want this oatmeal lol

Peace and love yall!

Oni.

My Venting List

Literally tryna get a hold of my feelings before I FREAK OUT ON PEOPLE. [my finger accidentally hit the caps button, but I feel it was only right that it stays]

Today just does not seem to be my day. *side note* I am probably gonna keep this short cause I am basically just venting.

Heres everything that is going wrong in list format:
-This annoying ass song is playing and I need something else, but I am to lazy to change it!
-The people in my class keep looking at me like I am stupid when I am the one who actually knows ANYTHING about our major!!
-Okay this song is turning out to be okay right now
-There are two stink bugs in my apartment and I AM FREAKING OUT!!
-The garlic water won't spray in my little sprayer thingy
-My computers going to die
*side note* classical music is playing and I am typing along with the beat, I FEEL LIKE A COMPOSER! [this is my destiny] Okay it stopped, now life is boring again! lol
-I messed up what I was gonna say when I was acting in class

Things that are going right in life:
-I am Acing all of my classes
-Getting that extra credit done!
-And getting that extra extra credit done!
-Beyonce came on *feeling like a BAD ASS BITCH*
-I cooked and am ready to go home and eat
-I got to act
-Updated my Tumblr

Got to go, class is starting again!

Bye, beautiful people of the internet!

Peace and love,

Oni

I Know I am Slacking

Hello lovely people of the interweb,

I am currently in my colleges library [looking/ feeling like a normal college student for once] listening to the beautiful Twigs. She is perfection! But I digress... I guess I am just here to inform you of my life...? I don't exactly have a plan for this...just...kinda...winging it?

OKAY *clasps hands together* Where to start?

Well I have been in college for ONE YEAR! *massive applause and whooping and hollering* Thank you, thank you! For all of your constant support and enjoyment of me no longer being an under classmen! Much appreciated. But anywho...

I have been working my butt off, or at least trying to motivate myself to work my butt off, which obviously I haven't been doing since my fingers have not touched these keys in the act of typing to the mysterious interweb in a long time. So obviously I am STILL slacking. [I will try harder :)] [That smiley face is sincere] [sort of]

Oh...right I am supposed to be telling you all about my life...right.

*Side note* I have a two plastic bags full of chips and water bottles, this is slightly random, but NO THEY'RE NOT STOLEN. My school gives out snacks during registration...and I registered on monday...but...I go back every day of registration and take food bahaha ITS FREE! [dont judge me]

okay ill switch to bullet points and a list format as to not get side tracked

-I am writing a paper on how cat calling is a form of sexual harassment [the most feminist thing I have ever done]
-I realized that it's okay to be alone [came in this world alone, going out the same way! power to the people]
-I have a 110% in one of my classes [gotta get that GPA up!]
-I still have yet to be officially unpacked in my new apartment [its been one or two months...I KNOW]
-I feel like vlogging? [might just happen..maybe *smirks*]
-really think I'm learning who I am?...kinda weird...BUT I LIKES IT! hahah
-I will try my best at everything!! [MOTIVATING MYSELF!]
-gonna get this extra credit in *side note* my heart just dropped at the sight of someone [not in a relationship way yall. No details though.]
-got new glasses that are the wrong prescription and give me CONSTANT headaches [only wear them in public, home time is for my old glasses #stillcutedoe hahah] 

I am outtie 5,000 cause this extra credit is not gonna do itself!

Peace and love yall,

Oni :) <- that's a sincere smiley!

Volunteering as Tribute: Peanut Allergy Addition

Hello beautiful people of the interweb!

Well, surprisingly I have been motivated enough to want to edit and make a new Youtube video; I think that deserves some applause! *insert claps*

If you would like to take a gander at my latest video creation and see what in the heck the Hunger Games has to do with nut allergies feel free to click the link below!

Volunteering as Tribute: Peanut Allergy Addition

Also, I make videos every friday [or at least try to haha] so feel free to check those out on my channel as well!

Peace and love,

Oni!

Andy Warhol Fashion Show

Hello beautiful people of the interweb! [And handsome people]

Well I have not touched my blog in lord knows how long. But in this moment, I feel inspired as heck to write to you all!

So today I was invited by my sister to a fashion show, and at first I was like "this is going to be stupid", or "a waste of my 5 dollars". But honestly it was probably one of the most fun things I have done in a while.

First, to set the stage and paint a picture in your minds. It was held at the Andy Warhol Museum, which is already a really cool place to be! But anyway, I was super impatient, because I have never actually seen Warhol's work up close so that's what I wanted to do IMMEDIATELY...but my butt head sister and our friend wanted to stop and what not haha.

We went downstairs to the basement and there were activities set up. One of which you had a conversation with someone then got a FREE screen printed bandanna [y'all know how I love my free].
The only downside to this part of the event, was that everyone kept sending me to the WRONG place to get my bandanna! And on top of other things that went wrong...everyone there thought I was in HIGH SCHOOL like the other kids! They were like "What grade are you in?" and I'm like "College" hahah.

Even though I was impatient for this part, the girl actually had really cool and deep topics to have a conversation on, so that was a plus!

I finally went to the top of the museum and worked my way down much faster than my sister and our friend. And by the time I reached the bottom THE FOOD WAS BEING SET UP \(-_-)/ I could literally talk about that bomb food all day...but back to the other things.

The band from the high school performed, and I know what you're thinking! "gross, a school band". But no, it was three awesome singers, a guitar player, a box drum player and a bass player! And it was AMAZING! They had really good harmonies and stage presence!

Just to try to quickly wrap this up! I got to make buttons, and infinity scarfs, there was screen printing and other stations with activities!

And the fashion show! Some of those pieces had me thinking that a high schooler could not of made that! The makeup was great and the music was bumping! [yall know I was getting it in the audience though, singing along with no shame haha] Although, there was one draw back...IT WAS HOT AS AFRICA in that audience! Being surrounded by sweating and gross teenagers all standing and dancing was not exactly the best!

But one of the main things that I liked about the crowd, was their style and freedom of expression! Seeing them all dressed so eclectic and different made me remember my high school self/true self and it made me miss myself a little. I never felt so comfortable in a crowd of people that I never met before while in college than in there surrounded by high schoolers nonetheless! Their style and carefree attitude is what I miss most about myself, and hopefully I'll find the courage within myself to be ME again! :)

But I have to go to sleep cause my sister and I are having a movie/ junk food night tomorrow to celebrate getting through midterms and I need my sleep!

Sadly my phone died so I couldn't even take pictures of the fashion show...way to go boost! haha But ill post the other ones later Also, they played Frank Ocean, so you know I was happy!



Peace and love,

Oni.

A Potential relationship, Me?

Hello lovely people of the internet!

So, lately [as in today] I became extremely confused.

If I haven't already told you all about my bet back home, let me just fill you in!

Back home I made a bet with my old boss, that I could go my whole college career (3 1/2 years) without dating, or anything else. The only legal thing would be hugging and holding hands.

So... there is this guy, whom I think is attractive (not necessarily that I want to date him or anything), but just that I think hes attractive. And my friends took that as an opportunity to make it seem like I want to date him or anything more. Making conversations and interactions with him extremely awkward, and uncomfortable!! (Event though, I'm already socially awkward!)

Today, my friends had a house warming party, since they just also moved out of the dorms, and decided to invite him.
(Which is fine with me, its not my party).

And at this party he started to show interest, which is weird for his zodiac sign (yes, I like zodiac signs and believe that it does a good job at describing a persons personality. Although, I dont believe in horoscopes which tell you "stay away from aries or you'll have a bad day" type of thing, that just screams bull!)

And now, I'm stuck feeling like, "what in the heck am I supposed to do?" "Should I take the chance of going outside comfort zone, or stay with what's comfortable and not loose the bet?"

A quick history on my ideal of dating:
I HATE IT! The idea of dating is annoying! The fact that you have to text them, call them, see them, make time for them, is something that I just can't stand! To me it seems like a waste of time!

But back to this whole situation...
I dont want to not take the chance and miss out on something great, but I dont want to take the chance, end up hating it and still loose the bet...

I dont know what to do?

What is life right now? Why me?

Peace and love,

Oni

Meeting Beverly Johnson

Hello,

The other day I was fortunate enough to go to an event at Macys, where I was able to meet Beverly Johnson.

And for those of you who do not know who Beverly Johnson is, then shame on you! But, to give you a little history, 40 years ago she was the first African American model to be featured on the cover of vogue!

Meeting her as well as some of other lovely ladies; to name drop, Constance White, and Demeatria Bocella. They were all unrealistically beautiful, fashionable and influential.

To quickly sum up the event, it was for black history month. And they discussed the importance of supporting other African American professionals. Not just in the fashion industry but in every aspect, although, I am not the biggest advocate of black people stating the whole "we have nothing" spiel. Personally, I think that we as black people have come a long way. And I know that the world will never be a "perfect utopia", but for us to complain that we have nothing is a little over done. (but I'll do a post on that later).

But I digress.

Let's just say the event had points that I agreed with and others that I did not.

But, one thing that will forever stick with me is this, Beverly Johnson said I was "cool and stylish". That one sentence, or fragment of one made my entire life!

You can check out my social media for pictures. Links are below.

Twitter: Aziza__Craig
Facebook: Aziza Craig
Tumblr: http://isthisnameokay.tumblr.com/
Instagram: Aziza_c76
Lookbook: http://lookbook.nu/aziza_c
Youtube:  http://www.youtube.com/user/azillia1

Peace and love,

Oni.

My body hurts all over...

So, I am currently typing this in my dorm room while in pain. Why you ask? BECAUSE I SPENT THE WHOLE MORNING WALKING UP AND DOWN HILLS, LOST LOOKING FOR MY FRIENDS HOUSE THAT SHE WAS GOING TO LOOK AT TO RENT. WHICH WE NEVER FOUND!!

I think I pulled something..everything hurts.

But I digress.

I am here to give you a little update on my life thus far!

I am in my third quarter of college or my first or second semester, if your school goes by that. And along the way of my college edumacation I lost myself.

There will probably been many times in my life that I will write this or something similar.
I do want to try to keep up with the latest trends on social media and let random people take a peak into my life, but I know myself. So, because of this I will probably post randomly or sporatically when I feel "motivated" and "enthused" about life.

But as I was saying..

I lost myself. I lost my sense of style, because I was to afraid to express myself. I lost my passion for clothes and the fashion industry, because I had a lot on my plate. I lost my drive to succeed and perservere, because I felt like my going to college was somewhat pointless. [Not knowing if I will have a career when I graduate, etc].

But, lately I have been getting back into my eclectic style, and my non caring attitude about what people think of me. I have been trying to find things that make me happy in life. And even though I know I won't go back to being 100% me over night these baby steps are going pretty well so far!

To make up for my absence, here are pictures of my face...

ALSO VERY IMPORTANT!!
New social media! [some are new others are old]
Twitter: Aziza__Craig
Facebook: Aziza Craig
Tumblr: http://isthisnameokay.tumblr.com/
Instagram: Aziza_c76
Lookbook: http://lookbook.nu/aziza_c
Youtube:  http://www.youtube.com/user/azillia1