Me singing royals by lorde

Hello,

Well as you know I now make youtube videos and I havent been posting them lately cause my computer broke so heres a video of me singing royals as an apology lol.

Enjoy!

Royals cover and apologies

peace and love,

Oni!


Hope you have a wonderful Christmas holiday!!

I think im addicted!!

Hello, beautiful people of the internet!

I am currently in my night class waiting for my teacher to show up and it just dawned on me how addicted I am to technology. Literally, whenever I am bored I find myself clicking into my Facebook. Why? I have no clue!!

Even though I know I dont have any new notifications I can't help but find myself clicking on...just cause.

So, I am going to try to find more productive things to do with my time. Instead of rotting my brain with useless status updates and pictures.

Not sure how all of this is going to workout, but wish me luck!!

Peace and love,

Oni.

Beyonce vs. Lady gaga??

So if you have not already visited my Youtube channel you should! My latest video is in response to a debate between myself, my roommate and her friend. Sorry that it is late my internet is giving me HE DOUBLE HOCKEY STICKS. lol

But if you would like to check out the video click the link below! New videos every Friday (if my internet permits it..)

Beyonce vs. Lady gaga


Peace and love!

Oni.

I Am Married!

Hello,

Long time no type..haha..I thought I was being clever.. ANYWHO!

Well you may have read about my YouTube videos that come out every Friday. But I am sad to inform you that I have been missing some Friday videos. So if you want to see my latest and definitely over due YouTube video, come check out my channel at; www.youtube.com/azillia1

But to inform you about my life..

I am currently apartment hunting!! And though I have found some good ones sadly to say they were scooped up before I even had a chance. :(

But don't fret my pets, the search is still a go!!

Also, a friend of mine and I sang at an open mike night (and if you have me as a friend on Facebook or follow me then you can watch the video!)

Also, speaking of Facebook if you do not already know the importance of November 11th...then your life is a failure haha Just kidding. But on November 11th, 39 beautiful years ago my husband was born! Leonardo DiCaprio :) And so I have made the tradition to horribly Photoshop my face into his pictures on his birthday!

Cant really think of what else is happening besides this Monday I will be 19 years old..but that's not important hahah. My mom and aunt are on their way up to visit me today for the weekend! :)

But yeah, hope all is well!  Sorry for such a short blog post.

Peace and love,

Oni! 

How Mustaches Can Save A Man Life

Hello all of you wonderful people out there!

Well I just recently did a review on some online surveys that send you free things and or money but at the time (approximately 50 minutes after I made the video they sent me an email that made that video invalid).

But, before I jump ahead of myself...this video of which I speak will me on my Youtube channel this Friday (because I make new videos every Friday in case you didn't know) unless I have technical difficulties...with my internet it happens... A LOT!

With one of the sites that I take surveys on they sent me a campaign thing to partake in. And basically we are raising money to help stop prostate cancer! And I bet you are like, "Well, what does this have to do with mustaches?"....I am not quite positive yet! haha I just read the campaign (while sleep deprieved and hungry) and what I got from it was you post pictures of yourself in a mustache weither real or fake, male or female and you direct them to your site that you sign up for where you or other people can donate money to help fight prostate cancer. I am still not sure why that has anything to do with mustaches, but when I find out YOU will be the first to know!

But if you would like to donate to such a wonderful cause as this (save the testies (that's what I call it)) then I will leave a link to my page on their website! And feel free to sign up yourself and help out with the cause!! LINK -> http://mosista.co/azizacraig <- LINK (in case you didn't see it, its surrounded by arrows and says link really BIG beside it!)

Peace and love,

Oni.

JC Caylen is actually a black girl?

Well hello there lovelies!

I've been in a good mood suprisingly with all of the crappy things that happened today...for example:
-I was editing my youtube video and I am still waiting for it to upload because I had to keep making tweaks and wait for my slow internet. (this probably won't be up until Saturday by the looks of my computer haha) (1:14pm saturday morning and it was finally done! ugh lol)
-Which since the first thing I do on a friday morning is edit I didnt eat, clean, shower or exercises till later today
-I didnt have time to work on any homework/projects
-I couldn't figure out how to flip my signature on a document
-Had to learn how to make my own crappy thumbnails for my videos
-Had a dorm room inspection after piling up all of my "tried on morning outfits" onto the empty bed in my room (But we passed)
-Didnt feel out any apartment applications! (yes, I am moving (hopefully) ill probably blog and vlog about that sometime in the future)

I could focus on the negative for probably a while, but I am still HAPPY! So that is a plus. It could be the Chinese food I bought..

Just so yah know tomorrow I am going to get pho!! So yummy and super excited.

But go check out my latest video and see why JC Caylen is actually a black girl in the link below!
 JC Caylen is actually a black girl?

Hope you guys are doing well!

Peace and love,

Oni.

Top Ten Things I Love To Do In My Free TIme

Yo yo yo, beautiful people...(maybe I should NEVER say that again ha)

But anywho, I am here to inform you of my latest YouTube video! I am so proud that I am keeping up with this thing. But I am still debating whether I want to do a blog about what the video is about...decisions....decisions!

Uhm, but yeah that is all. If you have some time on your hands you should go check it out!

New videos every Friday!!

Peace and love,

Oni.

Youtube & Updates

Well hello there beautiful people!

I have come to inform you of my life and what exactly is happening. Well if you didn't already know I am in college and sorta loving it. I live on campus so that is really convenient for me!! I was in five clubs my first quarter (some of them no longer exist :/) and I have a part time job that I work 20 hours a week and have five classes a week. But guess what my GPA is??

I am super excited to say that I have a 3.9, hopefully this quarter it won't drop!! Also, I got to help out with the fashion week here so that was cool, making connections and friends along the way!! And yesterday was our luncheon at Panera bread...and let me tell you free food is the best food!!! Being a college kid you get it where you can hah!

And what I really came on here to talk about, is that I have been vlogging on YouTube pretty regularly now. New video every Friday!! (I have decided) And if you want to, come and check them out! They aren't really about fashion or anything like that, just more so about my life and the funny stories that inhabit it.

But yes that is all for now, lovelies!

peace and love,

Oni.

cheese And chamomile

So if you havent already heard my story about the moldy beef jerky then you should go read it.

Because, I now have an experience that is ten times worse!

So me being the smart person that I am was hungry for some cheese. So I decided that it would be smart to just... have some. So I was eating and eating this delicious cheese (and needless to say I normally dont eat a lot of dairy products).

And you wanna know what happened...
nothing, absolutely nothing... for about a half an hour at least.

Now I suffer and reap the consequences of my actions. And I promise you, I probably wont be eating cheese anytime soon.

Chamomile tea and staying close to the bathrooms is the way I roll now.

Peace and love,

Oni.

I Need To Find Me. Thank You Jerome Jarre

So it has been a long time since my fingers have had a chance to press these keys.

I honestly don't know what to do. Every time I feel like I have everything all figured out something comes out of the shadows and just changes everything.

I've been watching a lot of motivational videos and YouTube. And after I feel like I can conquer the world, until a few moments later when something just throws everything off balance.

I don't know why I am in college, I don't know what I am going to do after college, I don't know where I want to be five years down the road...and I am starting (slowly but surely) to realize that it's okay not to know. I know that I may not have my life all figured out as I thought I did, but that's alright.

I need to revalute my life and figure out my passions, my addictions, my love, my hate, everything.

I need to start from scratch and figure out what I can't live without and what I can.

I need to find me.

You should check out this video on YouTube that is really helping me. How to Get Out of Your Comfort Zone with Jerome Jarre

I think every college student goes through this small life crisis, but when I figure out a solution I want to help other college students to get through this. If you have any advice leave it in the comments below.

peace and love,

Oni.

Behind every smile is a story

You know that old saying about how you never know what really goes on behind closed doors. That simple sentence explains my life easily. Even though I may smile and laugh theres a story behind my eyes and pain beneath my smile. And even though I could take the time to type out my life story, I'll just explain one terrible recent event.

My dad got in a car crash a few days ago and broke his back. (Side note strangely for the past few days I've been having back pain). They dont know if he'll be able to walk or talk because hes so deep under anesthesia. It honestly didnt register until a few hours ago that there is a possibility that i could loose my father.

Who will walk me down the isle when i get married? Who will babysit my future kids and tell them stupid hilarious stories about monkey hats?

Even though our relationship hasnt been the best over my lifetime, I know I am not ready to loose him or anyone else.

I probably won't be updating for a while, I'm sorry.

Oni.

Boogey men drop marbles?

Yesterday i found out that my dorm building is haunted and that someone was grotesquely murdered there two years ago. The weird part is there were witnesses and a tape recording that was found in the victims large intestines. They found claw marks that looked like a rabbits with an extra toe/finger thing and on the tape they scream the name "the rusty rabbit", along with other things. And on your way through the park you can see a statue of this weird looking rabbit...connection?

Also, people have been reporting hearing childrens voices and the sound of someone dropping marbles. (I think I might of heard the marbles sound but I'm not positive). With all this stuff happening people have been taking things to an extreme, pouring out salt, scared to be alone in their rooms, etc.

Now I am not one to get scared easily, so for me its like you've been living in the dorms for three weeks and all of a sudden people tell you its haunted and you start hearing voices and sounds. Also the RAs (resident advisers) if asked about the ghosts or the death dont like to talk about it. And to me its simple they dont wanna scare their money away. If people dont stay on campus they loose money. Also the death happened two years ago who would really wanna talk about something so gruesome?

Dont get me wrong I think ghosts are real and true but if you've been living in harmony with the reported ghosts for three weeks then why take it to an extreme?

Also, we have a paranormal club, who "investigates" the ghost activity in the building. And it has been said that a girl was in "the shack" also called the basement (its functional, like a hangout almost with pool tables and things) and reported coming upstairs and having scratches on her back. Truth be told I have been down there to many times to count and have not had one scratch nor creepy experience. Besides the fact that it's a big open basement that echos and has it's creaks, since it's old. And I was recently told that you are unable to take pictures or video downstairs. (I guess I am a rebel cause I took a picture of my friends playing pool before knowing lol).

I dont know what to make of this information, but as long as the ghosts dont touch me or my things they can drop marbles all night long for all i care.

Peace and love, ghost and ghouls.

Oni.

Bed times and boogey men

So I'll be the first to admit it, I have a bed time. And no I was not given a bed time by my mother, teachers, school or etc. I gave myself a bed time of 10 or 11 o'clock because I know myself. If given the opportunity of staying up till 2 o'clock every morning and barely making it out of bed at 6 wouldnt be far from a thought in my mind.

But last night I was forced to do the unthinkable! I stayed up till 1 something in the morning. But it was justifiable, since I had homework that was due the next morning. And needless to say with my 4 hours and 41 minutes of sleep I was able to get a 92 on my project! (Even though my grade was good I am still reaping the consequences and am now hearing my voice echo back in my head about how I could of scored higher) But my teacher loved it and seems to be excited!!

But on a far different note.... read my other blog post to hear about my new ghost experience.

Peace and love,

A tired oni.

Death defying heights

Officially starting to feel the nerves kick in.

I bet you're wondering what I'm talking about. (Side note that is a direct quote from one of my favorite movies: matilda!!)

Well as of tomorrow I will be a model for a day!! An early rise, and a death defying walk across a bridge. Well at least for me since I'm a chicken when it comes to heights and bridges over water, or land...or well over anything! Haha

But I'll try to take some pictures of the set and the outfit that I put together for tomorrow:)

I'll keep you posted, peace and love!

Oni.

A little history of psychology.

With five clubs going on and school work virtually every night, I dont think that I am going to be able to make time for this new guy that i met.

On another note, in my high school psychology class we learned that you learn better in the same state that you learned the information in.
So for example, if you study laying down on your bed youre less likely to do well on the test because you arent going to be taking the test laying down.
Or if your eating a certain food or listening to a certain song while you study, if you eat or listen to that song while youre testing youre more likely to remember the knowledge for your test.

It's sort of like how when you hear an old song on the radio and a rush of memories come back with it. Things you forgot about long long ago.

So the moral to this long winded story is why does this girl in my class keep taking my seat!!! (And its the only one in the class with a plug next to it!!) Lol one day she'll be in her seat, then the next shes in mine, like make up your mind!!

Peace and love,

Oni.

East side shape up and boys

I feel like I'm being drowned with school work. But what am I to expect from college, but late nights spent slaving over papers and projects.

But now to get that boring topic out of the way...

I went to the east side to go to my friends brother's barber shop so I can get a shape up (hence the title). And when we got there in the heat and sun, (minus the sun screen) my friend saw a friend of hers. They said their hellos and she introduced me and needless to say I got his number.

And for all of you readers thinking "finally!!!" "There is a god!!" Etc. I'm not that excited, for multiple reasons...
1. My schedule is unrealistically busy (five clubs, part time job and college. Where would he fit in?)
2. Hes not exactly my type (I dont know if I'm texting him because I kinda want a relationship and would take anything?)
3. I would owe my boss $20 (and to a broke college student $20 could mean: "I'm starving", or "I got me five cases of ramen and will no longer starve!") ( honestly he isnt exactly worth losing 20 bucks over lol not tryna sound harsh, but.)
4. Hes definitely not bring home to meet my parents material lol.
My list could probably go on sadly.

I'll end on this note, cause I'm tired and confused. I wanna travel the world and make something of myself and he isnt exactly the type of guy I would see myself doing that with.

What should I do, go for it or stick to what ive been doing? Comment your opinion below.

Peace and love,

A confused oni.

Thirty seconds: my life in list format

Let me just take thirty seconds to quickly update you on my life as best as I can and in list format.

I am currently in my Jammies with my bonnet on. (All black woman know about them bonnets and hair wraps, can I get an Amen!) Anyway...

I have killer cramps and sky rocketing emotions.
I feel like I am sinking under the pressures of college.
I joined more clubs, and am looking for a part time job. (Printing out resumes, cover letters).
I barely have time to blog.
I am trying to launch another idea for a blog (finding photographers, and partners to help me launch and run it).
modeling shoots and finding locations (I is a model now haha, well we will see).
Having to schedule and reschedule our roommate meeting so I can tell my lazy roommate that I am not her maid!!
Making appointments, keeping and remembering them.
Keeping up with my cleaning and cooking (ramen noodles and hot sauce ain't cutting it, when I have packs of meat and veggies in my fridge).
Dealing with a confusing guy, like do you like me or not so I can keep it pushing!!

Well thats about all of my problems, now that my conscience is clear I can sleep peacefully. Morning class tomorrow wish me luck!

Peace and love,

Oni. (I is in college now) 

Am I Going To Die???

Confession #1: I CANNOT STOP EATING!!

Okay, now that I got that off my chest... (confession #2: I'm typing one handed cause I am eating a butter finger *puts head down in shame*).

Well since I finally finished stuffing my face full of chocolate and anything that remotely resembles food. I know people always say "college students starve", "all you'll eat is Ramon Noodles" blah blah blah. Well just to prove to all those soon to be college kids, and used to be college kids, I eat very well on a daily basis.

And up until this week I have been eating my required three meals a day with a few snacks in between (feeling mighty healthy if I do say so). But just this week I have been eating double plates, late night snacks, and my trips to the corner store are far to many to count!

And I know I should feel bad about all of the above, but that is not what I am ashamed of. (I can't believe I am putting this out for the world to see) *sigh* I have done the unthinkable, the unforgivable and I am scared to reap the consequences.  So here it goes...

Just a few moments before deciding to post this soon to be embarrassing blog, I had hunger like no other. Stomach growling, irritability, loss of concentration...when I remembered I had some food stashed (first sign of an addict, stashing food) at the foot of my bed. So I looked inside and gobbled down the last of my bag of chips and was still hungry. So I remembered my beef jerky that I bought a LONG time ago. And  even though it was old, I was hungry and ate it... mold and all. *puts head down in shame and cries* So me being curious as to whether or not I was going to die instantly, or deliver hell into the toilet several times for the rest of my life. I decided to google, and I found that I shall be having stomach pains for a while, so I guess I deserve the pain that I will soon receive. Here's to hoping no one can hear my stomach decomposing as I sit down for a four hour lecture! (always optimistic!!)

Well that's enough embarrassment for today. Tell me some of your embarrassing stories in the comments below.

Lesson of the day: If it has mold and is green you shouldn't eat it.

Peace and love,

Oni.

90s make a comeback

I don't know if it's cause I was born in the 90's that I am absolutely in love with the fact that it is making a comeback!! I think that since I am openly biased about my love for the 90's, this should be nothing but positivity!

Ever since my little beach trip with my mother I have seen nothing but flat tops and crop tops. And honestly I love it!! This is bringing me back to my childhood and watching all of those cool TV shows, seeing the movie stars and anyone who was anyone wearing the latest trends of the time.

 Although, I must admit that some of those 90's trends could be seen as tacky, ugly and a whole other list of words; it was the originality that I loved. And in today's society you can rarely find originality, everyone copies everyone, it's a shame. I'm not sure if maybe the trends are what changed peoples personalities, but honestly everyone was nice and got a long back then. And in today's world you see people doing crazy things for no reason, but I digress...

But even without knowing about the whole flat top and fade phase, I have joined the club and cut my hair short. And I know what you are thinking, "she just said everyone is coping everyone" "she said there's no originality"!!! Well you can just shut your whore mouths haha. Because I cut my hair because I am in college and have black people hair and its much easier to go short and natural; than nappy and unhappy.  (why am I rhyming so much???)

Well with the crop tops, mesh shirts, flat tops and high waist denim shorts coming back maybe the world will turn into a better place after all!! (I am what people would say unrealistically optimistic)

But down below are some of my favorite styles and trends from then and now:) enjoy! Ps. this will be re posted on my fashion blog, so it is not a mistake.

Peace and love,

Oni.

Three clubs, Miyoshi Anderson and fashion week!!

I had my first day of class and ended up joining three clubs and might possibly start working soon. I know its a lot to hope for but I am excited and I know that this will be good for me!

One of my many lists of clubs is the Pittsburgh fashion week and I am really excited because this opportunity could open up so many doors for me! I have a great opportunity of working with miss Miyoshi Anderson who is still currently working as a actress, spokes model, fashion model and running (her baby) Pittsburgh fashion week. And hopefully from here my clubs and experience will be able to open new doors for me.

Also, I finally got a twitter so tweet me if you like. @Aziza_Craig and hopefully sometime down the road I will be able to tell you the dos and donts of balancing all of this.

And If you have any advice please feel free to let me know!! Also, I will hopefully be updating my fashion blog more, especially since my roommate is in photography so that should be updated soon!

Peace and love,

Oni.

First college class today!

Today, I had my first morning college class! And me being the impulsive, over achiever and hater of being late person that I am was there, probably a half an hour before class starts. I think I nearly scared my teacher! haha I am not normally a morning person, but I know the best thing to do is to make a good impression (which I think I did). And to have my teachers and peers remember me because that is the easiest way to success in my field. 

Class was fun, but confusing. And I already have projects and home work and things that I wouldn't of thought of getting until some weeks later. I think I might sign up for some clubs and a part time job. I am the type of person that once I find my schedule I am set and able to do a lot at once. Although, it may be hard at first for me to get situated, I know I can do it! 

Also, another thing I have to work on is speaking up in class. That is one part that is making it hard for me to become situated. There are these two people who keep talking (and I understand that talking is a good way for feed back and showing your skill, but honestly it was during the entire class). And not to sound rude or anything of the sort, they were basically repeating the teachers questions to make them sound like their original question or idea. It honestly got me to the point of being annoyed. I completely understand that if you are confused you should ask questions and ask for help, but there comes a point where they were just asking questions to get spot light, or to seem smart. It became boring and annoying. 

For example, the teacher would say something then out of know where you would here "oh, you know I completely understand what your talking about" followed by further unnecessary explanations. or you would hear "oh, so what your saying is...and then he would repeat what she just said...then he would say "so a prime example of that would be" and repeat again what she JUST said or random nonsense. Don't get me wrong learning new knowledge and miss understanding something is one thing but doing it for attention from your teacher and interrupting the class at every turning point of the lecture is annoying and repetitive. 

Also, for my last note of annoyances of today. There is this girl who has for the past week of me first seeing her at orientation, has been staring at me for no reason at all. And she asks to sit down next to me in class, and I have absolutely no problem with that. Except every time I even looked in the corner of my eye I could see her looking over at me and staring at me. I am not sure what her problem is but, that is annoying. 

And also being that we are in college and are supposed to be adults don't you think you would come to class prepared? Well apparently not for this girl because she kept asking me to borrow paper. And I am not a mean person or anything (even though this is my only note book for five different classes, which we just so happen to have ALL the SAME classes) I gave her a sheet. And every time I would start a new page she would lean over and ask me for one. And the whole time we were on break she was bragging about how her mom is gonna bring her some more money tomorrow. Which I am hoping so because tomorrow I am not sharing my only notebook of paper with her for the next 10 weeks of classes. We are 18 years old and older you would think that you would come to class prepared and ready to go. 

Well I have to start my homework, charge my laptop and get ready for my meetings tonight! Wish me luck!!

peace and love,

Oni. 

college life day 3

Hello, hello, hello beautiful people of the Internet!

Well I just thought I'd update you on my days in college so far! Well my first day at orientation I made three new friends who I have been hanging out with a lot lately: well at least two of them because the other girl has her own apartment so we don't see her much. Their names are Collin, (my new gay sassy friend hhaha) Sierre, (my new black and sassy friend ahha) Michelle (my white sassy pieced friend haha) (side note: I don't know why I attract the sassy people but luckily they're really cool haha)

I must say that I am super happy that I was able to move into the dorms a day early because: first off, I got to pick my room first! (side note: my room was actually moved up higher and must I say that I am SO happy about that! My dorm is now on the 8th floor and has an amazing view, beautiful sized room and closet!!) I think my only real concern was fitting all my clothes into my closet!!! But luckily all my clothes fit with A LOT of room for my room mate who actually doesn't need it cause she lives close and only brought a little bit of clothes. But I still share!! :)

Also, my room is set up! And must I say that it looks gorgeous!! I finally feel (right at this exact second) like I am in college, I finally feel that grown up ness you're supposed to feel. lol (if that makes sense) blasting music, meeting new people, blogging and paying for my own things (even though most of that stuff I've been doing lol)

As for the guys here there seem to be none that are remotely attractive hahah so I am definitely going to win the bet (here comes 70 dollars hahah).

Well my roommate is sleeping and Im pretty sure my typing and singing is annoying her, so the least I can do is stop one of the annoying things! ps. did you know that Pittsburgh people have accents? you learn something new everyday! (I guess thats also why I'm paying so much money to go here as well)

bye y'all, peace and love,

Oni.

Tomorrow it is.

So it is 9:16am and I'm sitting in my jammies thinking and going on facebook. When I realize that tomorrow at 4:00am I will be heading off to college where I will stay and live for a year of my life. And even as I type it, it still seems somewhat unreal.

Hopefully everything will go well and I will have a blast and learn a lot of course haha. But my tummy is yelling at me so I must go and silence it!

I'll try to update this more and hopefully my fashion blog as well lol (especially since I'm getting a new computer!!)

Well peace and love,

Oni.

New hair, new college, new boy?

Well since it has been far too long since I've updated this thing, I think its about time :)

Well I leave for college in t minus 5 days (I've always wanted to say that haha)! And I'm absolutely, positively excited!! Even though it will be a hard and new experience of sharing a room with a girl i don't know for the next year. Also I was lucky enough to get special permission to move in a day early so guess who's picking the room with the biggest closet haha

Also I got a new hair cut and I'm really liking it! It suits me well and a lot of other people like it also. Maybe I'll post a pic :)

And too update you on my non existent love life, my adorable boss gave me the advice of asking him out or for his number and when I did he completely ignored me. I guess that's good tho cause at least I can go to college with a clear heart and mind now!

Well my cats bugging me to pet her so peace and love!

Oni.

The anticipation that kills

With the beach two days away and college in thirteen, I'm not sure how much longer I can endure this anticipation!

I feel like I want college to be happening right now! But honestly I'm not so sure. In my life (and probably in everyone's) they've had "checkpoints" or so to speak.

For me it was "man I Can't wait to be ten! The big one oh, first time in the double digits :)" then came the, "man when I'm eleven I'll be a PRE TEEN!" (Probably one of the coolest things to be haha) then I got into the teenage years and was raving over turning sixteen. Not only because I thought I was gonna have some raving party but also I'll be able to drive!! As all these check points come about, I realize that college just feels like another to add to the list.

I'm not sure if I'm actually excited or if I'm going along with the normalcy of college.

I don't know, peace and love.

Oni.

Pittsburgh

I am sorry. I just want to apologize in advance to any Pittsburgh natives. I have nothing personal against Pittsburgh or its crappy football team... (well maybe I have something against the Steelers ... lol)

Well I start college in this Steelers loving town soon. And all of the days before filling out my application here my admissions lady was telling me how great it is there, and how great the fashion is. So me being the optimistic person that I am went in with an open heart and mind.... and came out with disappointment and pity.

I was disappointed because the fashion was crap!! (me being optimistic: maybe everyone was having a dress down day ... EVERY SINGLE PERSON THERE!!!) Not only will I have to dig to the deepest depths to find ANY inspiration there, none of my roommates are fashion majors. Maybe I'll be blessed with a well dressed roommate, maybe the heavens will take pity on me. (Being that I'm surrounded by Steelers everywhere!!!)

Also, my time there will be filled with pain because my one roommate who called me is the complete opposite of my personality! I am sarcastic and blunt but in a funny loving way lol. And she is about as dry and borning and formal as I DONT KNOW WHAT! But if you think of something to compare please let me know. And the funny part about her formality is that she's from new york (my home town and love!!) although sadly to say she's from upstate new York and had not set a polished toe in my neighborhood. But I digress, she didn't want to get to know me she was right to business about this stupid list!!

And since I have now arrived at the topic of the list, I had planned to just buy all of my own items. For example, my own cups, bowls, iron and ironing board etc. Because the way I see it is that regardless of whether or not I buy it now or next year when I get a new dorm room I'm gonna need those items. Or better yet, when I graduate and get my first apartment I'm gonna need those things so why not have me buy it now and call it a day. I'm gonna need cups, plates, ironing boards and etc then so why wouldn't I get it now. And also, when I leave to get a new dorm my cups and plates are going with me, if I bought it its leaving with me end of story!

Well I'm done ranting I guess, wish me luck with these people. (Side note: I DON'T REALLY LIKE FEMALES OR HANGING OUT WITH THEM hopefully this doesn't turn into a mini version of bad girls club; nahh they're to boring lol) (sorry to my roommates if we do become friends and you don't try to steal my stuff and we actually get along...)

Oh more on my bet and my love life soon, I didn't forget :)

Peace and love,

Oni

Bugs the size of rats and possibly a boy ;)

So it has been about four years since I had a relationship. And I know what you're thinking "omg call the nearest guy to come date her!" But don't fret...

(side note: I was in my moms dirt basement doing laundry and she complained to me how I shouldn't be in the basement etc. Well I pleaded my case (and won) about how its cooler down there than the third floor where my room is. And I was sitting down there listening to music, enjoying my victory and writing this blog when THE HUGEST BUG, ABOUT THE SIZE OF A RAT DARTED UNDER SOME BOXES OUT OF THE CORNER OF MY EYE. I nearly peed myself o.0 I think it was a thousand legger. But if my mother asks I left cause I needed to charge my phone not because that thing nearly stopped my heart...I feel itchy :/ no more basement for me EVER! :End side note)

any who, dont fret cause during those four years, I hated dating! Anything that remotely had to do with relationships I was disregarding and putting down. But now I'm ready to eat every bad word that I said about dating!

I bet you're wondering how such a hardcore believer of the stupidity of dating could suddenly just change her mind. His name will remain untold in case of accidentally discovering my blog. But he's what seems to be unreal.... he speaks another language, has a really good job, a good head on his shoulder, plays the piano, sings, has the same religious beliefs as me, is an absolute goof ball: need I say more. Ha well because of this mysyery man I've come to a road block even bigger than the first: COLLEGE! More on this heart and head breaking topic later;) (side note) it smells like poop, closing the windows lol (end side note)

A late night realization

So I'm sitting here on my aunts couch at 1:48 in the morning singing to myself and realizing just how blessed I am. I have a come a long way as a person and i realize now how far left I have to go, and honestly I'm not as afraid as what I would have imagined myself to be.

Just last year I would of loathed taking pictures: and I still have to remind myself that the camera is my friend and that I don't have to be frightened by it. But now I'm posting up pictures like there is no tomorrow and asking everyone I see to take a picture with me...only if I know them of course haha
I have made a lot of friends and relstionships with people that I hope to last a lifetime. And now I get to begin a new chapter in my life. This one will be called college ....

Sincerely, oni.

Peace and love.

Unorganized

So I'm currently living out of a suitcase five out of seven days a week and I work two jobs and juggle school and honestly I feel like my life is falling apart. My grades are dropping and I only have two more months left in school I don't know how much more I can take. Also my heart problems seem to be recurring again. Chest pains and a clicking noise aren't normally supposed to happen I don't think. But anyway I HAVE to find a way to get the reins back on my life before its to late. Wish me luck!

Peace and love,

Oni.

controversy

I don't make many posts online because I bought a journal, but when ever I can't find it I will post my thoughts on here. What ever they may be. So I apologize now for any controversy.

Heated blankets are really hot, time to turn mine down...

peace and love,

Oni.

We make the famous rich, but our pockets are crying

So this post is just a mixture of things that I have come to realize, or have been realizing but I decided not to acknowledge them.

We are all surrounded by lies. Constantly, every single day we wake up and are faced with the horrifying truth that there are lies everywhere we turn. I do not mean to be offensive towards anyone, but I just need my thoughts to be put out there.

For me, when I see myself and look at the world around me it is honestly sad and pathetic. It's hard for me to be "myself" because "myself" isn't accepted as whats "normal" or "beautiful". When actually the "beauty" we see in our celebrities is truly false. They are people, just like you and I and we continue to place them on a high pedestal. And honestly I feel sorry for the people with their names in the spot light, because they have to be "perfect" ALL THE TIME. And truthfully if you think about the fact that they have to go through full on make up and hair every time you leave to go anywhere, and make sure that you look "red carpet ready" is sad.
- I read an article in a magazine (I am not quoting) saying what was Britney spears and her kids thinking when they wore sweat pants to take the dog to the vet. <- if nothing in that sentence bothers you then in my opinion your to materialistic. Who really gives a rats ass, shes going to the vet for goodness sakes not the academy awards. It honestly pathetic that that's what is FRONT PAGE NEWS in magazines when there are possibly more important things happening.

And whats even worse is that people, girls and boys; men and women all around the world are sucked into the false realities of that's what they should be like.

We constantly want to pick the brains of the people we idol, and see what a day in their shoes is really like. We want to be them, lets be honest. We want their cars, and their money and their fame and to have millions of people looking up to you. When actually being a celebrity and loved is probably one of the hardest jobs anyone can take. You actually have to be able to complete what ever talent or task you're good at, you have be "in shape" aka far to skinny to function. You have to be a role model to millions of people who all think differently and have different opinions. There will be people out there who will love you to bits, hate you beyond belief, fan girl you, stalk you and lots of other crazy things. What people don't realize is that WE GIVE THEM POWER, WE GIVE THEM MONEY, WE MAKE THEM FAMOUS. If it wasn't for us spending our rent checks on their movie premieres, CD's, concerts, and television shows and a million other forms of propaganda: they would be just like us. Their wealth and entire existence depends entirely on us and whether or not we choose to love them, or hate them or love to hate them they wouldn't be that "famous celebrity" if it wasn't for us.

PS. This goes for people that we make into celebrities like famous youtubers, bloggers, instagramers, etc. They have it hard just as much as the more well known celebrities do. 

Well I'm gonna stop for now because I hate writing long articles. Sorry for any grammatical errors, and such.

Peace and love,

Oni. 

life.

Hello,

I finally realized what my problem is...well before I get in to that whole spiel. I got out early today and am on my laptop blasting my all time new favorite song for now; Always and Forever by Marques Houston.

And I decided that I want to start dancing again so I am trying to learn some choreography online, which is really fun and very challenging. But I love it! Also, I kinda came to the conclusion that I wanted to become flexible again, which will definitely help out with dancing. So wish me luck!! Although, I probably will not become some "All Star" dancer somewhere on TV, I really enjoy watching it and doing it so its about time I picked it back up again.

Well on to explaining some of my many realizations about myself...If you have not noticed I am a lazy bum. But although I really do love blogging, vlogging, and fashion I just don't have the time or effort to continue. Although, I'm not saying that I want to have some gigantic and famous blog or anything I just don't have any motivation lately or followers. :( And I understand the only way to get followers and such is to continue blogging but sometimes I feel like I am preaching to the wind out here haha. And sadly enough to say every time I go to make a new vlog video I can't hear myself nor do I know how to do a voice over or edit correctly. (I speak relatively quiet on a daily basis so for me I am like yelling at my computer every time I make a video and I don't know if I am just losing my hearing or what cause I can't hear myself). So I am not really sure if I am going to be making any more vlogs unless done on my phone and uploaded somehow or when my brother gives me his mac so I can download Imovie. But I probably won't be getting that computer until I head off to college. :(

Well maybe I'll just have to keep going and eventually something will happen. And another thing to yell at myself for is that I barely ever post OOTD's which I need to get on, cause I have outfits lying around my room waiting for me to snap pictures of them.

PS. I probably won't be taking photos outside anytime soon, its unrealistically cold (9 degrees this morning) where I am and I am not going to get sick and end up missing school or work anytime soon, so hopefully ill get those pictures updated and get a move on with my life. waahh!

peace and love,

Oni.

more updates and giveaways?

Hello, hello and again with my theme of keeping things short this will be as well. I am here to tell you that everything is updated, from my blogs, to lookbooks, to vlogs etc. I am highly proud of myself right now :)

Well my schedule is busy with finals happening and everything this week so I probably won't be posting a lot for this week. But hopefully when it is over I can get back on track (or at least make a track that is, since I have no exact date of which I update everything. I have to get on that!) Well nothing really else is going on that I have time to type about for now.

But thank you even if you don't subscribe, thank you for just dropping by and checking out my things. I appreciate it. Maybe if this thing picks up I can do give aways and contests and fun things like that!! :)

Peace and love,

Oni.

I survived!

So thankfully I survived the night with no bodily harm done to myself or others. Unfortunately the smell of restroom, pizza and feet still lingers :(

But thankfully now I get to indulge in some yummy Chinese food. Which is well deserved :)

Peace and love y'all

Oni.

Kill me now.

So kill me now blog readers as I explain to you my horrifying situation.

Today is my one Saturday off in a very, VERY long time. And so my aunt asked me if I wanted to go with her to my little cousins 7th bowling birthday party. And so me being the kind hearted person that I am decided to say yes....

I regret to inform you all that this was probably the worst idea to come. Our table is right next to the mens bathroom, I can hardly hear myself think over the screaming children, crashing pins and my thoughts of how to escape.

But without a car or money for a taxi (i doubt they take credit cards) I am forced to stay and conversate with people I have never meet that are supposedly related to me. Fun.

I'll keep you guys posted.

Peace and love,

Oni.

Updates

Hello blogging world, just here to tell you that I have a new ootd on my other blog, and tumblr, etc. And I will soon have another vlog post on my YouTube account! So drop by and take a look, feedback would be much appreciated!!

Other blog: www.fashionssoulmate94.blog spot.com
Tumblr: www.isthisnameokay.tumblr.com
YouTube: www.youtube.com/azillia1
Pinterest: Pinterest.com/acraig94

Peace and love,

Oni.

Untitled

So my mothers reason for making my life ten times more difficult was because " she needs to start living for her " and it makes me curious as to what she's been doing all this time. And her other quote of reasoning " your going away to college soon, your leaving so " so making my life difficult fot the last four or five months is okay? Excuse me, if I didn't wanna be up all night studying, catching rides with people, staying over at peoples houses just so I can pay my bills and barely make it through my senior year. Thanks mom, hope your life gets better than what mines will be.

Peace and love y'all,

Oni.

It can only get better.

Chaos.

I am 18 years old I have two jobs, blogs, vlogs and high school to juggle. You would think that would be enough on my plate but now there's more. My mother decides she's going to move me out of my school two York halfway through my senior year and not only is that going to affect my grades but also, my work. For so many years now I've been paying for everything that I own my phone bill, to my internet, to my clothes, to my school stuff and now with me moving to York I will no longer be able to do those things because I probably won't be able to make it to my job on time. I don't normally me ask for much but one thing that I do ask for is that I would be able to stay and not have my life turn into a more chaotic event than what it already is.

Peace and love,

A very sad oni.

patronizing?

Hello blogging world! Well I am currently in a dilemma right now.... So for the past few days I have been talking about starting to vlog which I have been doing pretty well with keeping up with.

But I got a message from a girl in my inbox on YouTube and we were having a conversation when at the last moments of our conversation she said she wanted to see my (*ehem* excuse my use of the word) "boobs" and she wanted to show me hers. I have never met this girl before and am perfectly fine with having a conversation with someone, and I did so with her. When she called me (and I quote) "nice but patronizing".

But pardon me if I am "Patronizing" because I do not want to send indecent pictures of myself to this person on the Internet, nor would I like to receive them. And if having some respect and decency in myself makes me "Patronizing" then damn it I AM PATRONIZING! And I am not some up tight prude either I just do not find it interesting to send pictures of myself that could potentially ruin me in the long run, and it leaves nothing to the imagination :)

And sorry if you are this person and ends up reading this, this is my life and I must blog about it.

p.s. if anyone would like to have a normal conversation then I would be happy to, I don't bite!

peace and love,

Oni.

Twitter?

Hello, hello, beatiful people!!

Well I was wondering, that since I have every other social media device to be used for my liking...that maybe I should start a twitter as well?

Well give me some feedback on what you guys think yes or no?

ps. sorry for using well a lot... I am seriously trying to stop hahha

peace and love,

Oni.

Vlogging and thus so far

Yo home dawg's...<- never again I promise hahah

Sooo lets talk vlogging:) I really like it so far although it takes me forever to figure out how to edit them and make them better but I will try my best to get better at this. (and to speak louder :/ sorry, I am pretty much a quiet person...well except when I laugh..I can thank papa dukes for that one haha)

Annnnd at this exact moment I am trying to edit a video about my day today, which was surprisingly pretty okay so far :) so stay tuned, if I can not figure it out tonight ill try to get it on tomorrow. If you have any tips or anything that would be much appreciated! ♥

So about my creepers, I am absolutely in l O V E with them!!! although they do rub a little on the sides, but I think once I get them stretched out and worn more I think it will be okay. But I hope you guys like my outfit that I posted and surprisingly I was able to update all of my social media devices, besides facebook lol. 

Well that is all for now lovely people!!

peace and love,

Oni.

Creepers ootd

Everything is from forever 21 except
Creepers: journeys
Hat: my dads store
Watch: Kmart
Earrings: H&M